Lost Days

I mentioned a few blogs back that i was reading a book called "The Practice of the Presence of God" about Brother Lawrence, a man who served in a monastery in the 16 hundreds. It was a really challenging book to my prayer life and my general attitude about things. The last sentence of the book was the most challenging.

"believe me, i count lost all the days i spent not fully loving God."

That caused me to fall on my face and repent for wasting days because i am selfish and ridiculous and spend some days not fully loving God, not being completely hid in God.

Another really challenging paragraph was this:

"Nothing can give us so great relief in the trials and sorrows of life, as a loving intercourse with God; when such is faithfully practiced, the evils that assail the body will prove light to us. God often ordains that we should suffer in the body to purify the soul, and to constrain us to abide with Him. How can anyone whose life is hid with God, and whose only desire is God, be capable of feeling pain? Let us then worship Him in our infirmities, offering to Him our sorrows, just when they press upon us, asking Him lovingly, as a child his dear father, to give us strength, and mold our will to His."

I want to desire only what God desires and to be completely hid within Him.